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Feb 15, 2004
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"People don't keep journals for themselves. They keep them for other people,
like a secret they don't want to tell but they want everyone to know." -Marilyn Manson
I have to do my chinese homework and leave for my chinese lessons in an hour. After that im goin to go watch Gothika -_-". I cant believe they managed to convince me to go...AHHHHH!!!! OMGG AHHHH!!!! I DONT WANNA WATCH THIS! I JUST SAW THE PREVIEW AND AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! x_X
"i forsee the lack of a good's night sleep in your immediate future."
actually its kinda annoying the way everyone (apart from my close friends) thinks that i will completely freak out and have nightmares for the rest of my life. i mean i know i sometimes look and act like a complete soft...erm...marshmallow?(lol Dom...) but still....a little faith would be appreciated :p.
S.O.E.'s (Statements Of Eligibility [why couldnt they just say "things saying whether or not you can do the subject higher/standard/not at all for gr 11" instead of soe? sure its longer but its self explanatory then ^_~ ]) arrived today. Of course i didnt noe this till about 2 hours after i had been home -_-".
ANYWAYZIES that was completely besides the point.
I GOT ALL HIGHERS!!! complete shock since i thot my chinese, comp and history teachers would give me a standard if not a H? (higher question mark). i noe y my comp teach gave me a higher tho. he noes i wont do it next year -_-" BUT HU CARES! ALL HIGHERS! WOOHOO!!!
okeys. enuff crowing. ^^
Sweet sixteen
Powdered green
Out in the park
Well after dark,
Wilding!
-Twelve Impossible Things Before Breakfast
had that stuck in my head all day. no idea why...
ACK! is that the time?? lol i havent finished any of my hw *sigh*
i was going to write an entry for this blog. but then i realised i dont have anything new to add or say.
maybe i can write poems...but thats sorta for my other blog more than this one.
i could rant...but i dont want to.
i could talk about how im doing i guess...
Hi. I am fine. Not excellent (for who is?) but still pretty good considering. Nothing much has happened. Slow week. Played a lot. Did a lot of homework. Which reminds me... do we have a history test on monday?
on saturday after my chinese lessons we stopped at baleno. since we were so bored i pretty much tried almost every piece of clothing they had. i ended up buying a few pairs of socks (one incredibly wacky looking) and 2 shirts. i didnt buy any of the skirts tho they were nice cuz i dont wear them. tooo cold. seriously! i was shaking in the store it was so cold. *sigh* ah well. sweaters and pants it is then.
my brand spanking new folder already has a hole in it x_X. this looks like a job for....ORANGE TAPE! MUAHAHA.
only problem is that im worried it will melt again -_-".
i want to take up a new hobby.
bellydancing? it sounds sorta funny...
dancing? learning things like the samba sounds pretty cool...
fishing? ive only done it once in my life (lol remember melissa?) and it was pretty fun
knitting? AHHH NOOOOO. besides, i dont need anytin knit x_X
cooking? lol ermmm thats not really a hobby...
gaming tournaments? muahaha. i'd most likely get creamed. im not a die hard gamer unlike SOME ppl
rock climbing? i think its already full tho...hmph.
sailing? ooo yeh! but its more fun wif a friend... stephhh!! melissaaa!! all u guysss!! go sailing wif meee lol
arghh. this is too boring. im tooo boringgg. wahhhhhhh *runs of crying*
u noe how i was tired yesterday? well this morning i had to get up early and for most of school my brain was fuzzy. i mean i could actually feel how fuzzy my brain was :(.
and to top off a perfectly tiring day i get a surprise from my mom. 2 HOURS OF CHINESE TUITION! i thot it was a one time thing today but now i know i have to have it TWICE A WEEK! thats 4 HOURS of chinese tuition! that means i spend about 7 hours on chinese a week!!!!!
ARGHHHHHHH!!!!! *lies writhing and twitching on the floor*
i think ill go have a shower or somefin. i feel like a limp noodle x_X
zai jian wo de peng you men -_-"
-Jz
UPDATE:
ive managed to break a chinese rule and now have cursed myself to having misfortune for the whole of this year. this day keeps gettin better and better.
The girl danced in sky-time blue
Her feet moved across the floor, free in her glass shoe.
The prince came to her side
He asked her to dance, his smile kind and wide.
The beauty took his hand and danced so happily around the floor.
She then led him to garden, under the sparkling night sky,
whispered to him, "I don't need you anymore".
Mama always did have a beautiful voice, when she wasn't drunk. I used to ask Mama why the girl didn't need the prince. Mama's blue eyes would stare into mine.
"Because my darling, she didn't need some prince to save her, she could make do on her own. Just like you, you don't need a prince to save you." Mama would say, her hand slightly touching my nose.
"No, I don't need a prince, but Mama? What about you, you don't need a prince do you? Mama, lets run off together. To a place without princes." I said. Mama's eyes would become sad and tear up.
"No dear Elizabeth, unlike you, I have given up my chance to be princeless. I need a prince to save me. Oh! But not you Ella, you have a chance, you can save yourself from evil stepmothers, stepsisters, dragons, witches, ogres, whatever life throws at you. Promise me that Ella, promise me you will save yourself."
"I promise Mama, I promise." That night was the last time Mama sang to me. I hummed the song to my self again, my feet danced across the pink room; so far no prince had come to save me.
i had an idiotic grin plastered on my face the whole bus ride home ^^. today wasnt as bad as i thot it would be lol. *breathes in the scent of jasmine coming from my desk* it feels so nice to just sit and not panic about failing math.
And, well, I think that I'm sick.
But leave me be while my world is coming down on me.
You taste like honey, honey.
Tell me, can I be your honey
Bee? Be strong!
Keep telling myself it that won't take long
Till I'm free of my disease.
Yeah, Free of my disease.
Free of my disease. -Disease, Matchbox 20
hey does anyone noe if theyre still selling the valentine candy-grams? i need to buy some for my valentines lol
NOTE TO VALENTINES: u better by me some candy back ^_~ lol j/k u dont have to (tho it would be nice...)
hmmm maybe the approach of valentines day and talk of the gr10 formal is the reason why some ppl are acting so weird...SNAP OUT OF IT! *slaps wif waffle* *changes mind as that is a waste of perfectly good food* *slaps wif deflated basketball*
i went to talk to one of the tertiary advisors at lunch today. it was so surreal. it felt like i was old and actually being serious about my future and the rest of my life. it was quite daunting actually...
omg im going to be 16 in a few months. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! IM OLDDDD!!!!!
i dont think i can even have a bday party since my bday is the day before the exams -_-"
THINGS I WANT TO DO WHEN I BECOME 16:
Actually have a valid id to show the person when i go play pool.
Learn how to drive (wouldnt that be so cool? i wouldnt have anytin to drive....but i COULD if i had to)
Not freak out over the exams and get all A* (not happenin but i can always dream ^^)
Sit on the ledge outside of my window (its about 3ft wide, flat, has no railings and is 10 stories up. i've always wanted to sit there but i doubt either of my parents would approve lol)
Learn how to successfully use html to improve my sad lookin web pages
Go on a "road" trip to Phuket wif u guys. WE HAVE TO GO! THAT WOULD BE TOO COOL FOR WORDS! (btw, we could go before im 16. otherwise it mite be hard to explain to our parents y we left during the exams lol ^^)
Go bungee diving, indoor skydiving, parasailing, sailing or just to Big Splash.
Own a squeegee. (i mean the name alone is enuff of a reason)
Go to canada and have a family reunion! i think we're doing that anyways but still ^^. i havent seen valerie, adam, madison, nicole, etc in sooo long! and i havent been to canada in AGESSSS
HE TOOK IT! HE DID! I SAW HIM! WAFFLE EATER! AHHHHHHHH
i got back some more exam results today. my first A*! WOOHOO!!! now i just have the rest of the week to live thru. plz plz plz plz let me live thru this.
OMG! AHHHHH!!!! i get my math exam results back!
the BIG exam.
the FINAL one.
AAAHHHHHHHHHH
*passes out from hyperventalation*
well well well. and here i was thinking i was weird. whoever those 9 ppl r (or 1 person hu likes clickin the submit button over and over again) hu voted... well wateva. ill leave the poll for awhile longer. if thats the decision in the end then fine by me lol. it can be done ^_~
ladidar... i want to watch peter pan. i dunno y. i just do. i couldve gone today but noooo. i had guests. then i got a cold -_-". WHY??? WHY????
anywayzies.
"how doth the little crocodile improve its shining tail?"
or somefin like that.
